By the way, I got into Edinburgh University.

I’m sitting in my new room, which I’ve just tidied after the visit of my messy boyfriend. I feel like I’m in a hotel room, I really haven’t yet realised that I’m not going home. On Tuesday, my lectures begin, which is pretty exciting. Japanese, East Asian Civilisation and German.

The me a year or two ago would have been incredibly pleased. I’m not saying I’m not pleased, it’s just that with every great thing comes pain, and vice versa. I don’t think I realised that so much before. It’s hard to know what you haven’t experienced.

I’m doing a lot better than I expected. I’ve met a lot of people, and it’s only Freshers’ week. I’m not as afraid as I thought I’d be. I’m not as shy, not as outcast.

I seem pretty outgoing online, but really I’m as vulnerable as anyone else, and these past few weeks have helped me realise that.

I never thought I’d be so willing to give everything up for something so uncertain.